JustJoni

I smile on the outside, try to make everyone believe that everything is perfect. I am that person that always need to be strong, pretend that i dont care and that everything is okey. I have snapped a couple of times(not sober), couldnt hide my truthfully feelings. and the truth is that i am scared, insecure, lost, pretending, wanting happiness, confused......keep going.....just waiting on that day, that move, that light, when I know and understand everything. What I want, what life will bring, its meaning and my call. I am trying to stay positiv, see the bright side and reminding myself that the things I consider to be bad, could be so much worse. So yeah, I want to be that smiling person, the one that everyone wants... so that is what I am gonna do, "keep on smiling" because that makes everything so much funnier and easier! or does it? who knows, maybe I will never know...